Blogs were meant for rambling, right? Well, I'm rambling. I was just thinking. People always think I'm really energetic and talkative, and I do act that way around strangers and even my friends when we goof off. But I have to say, I feel like I haven't been entirely myself for the past... oh I dont know, I cant tell if its been 2 weeks or 2 months. I love my one VERY energetic friend dearly XD but I've been around her so much more than I have before, and I love seeing her all that time, but I walk away feeling like I've been waaay too energetic. And I'm still running off that strange vibe for a while after we're separated. I just dont like being energetic all the time, but its like I cant help it. I'm most myself when I'm at home alone in my room. My mind gets back into its calm, thoughtful, and sarcastic self again. I wish there was some way I could just be this self always. People say to just be yourself, its easy. But strangely, it isnt. I know who I am, but I dont know how to be me... its a really strange thing. Frank Sinatra music brings out the best thoughts XD I love you my beloved Frankie <3